Current mood:	tired
Current music:	She's Gone - Super Junior

"Bittersweet"
Pairing: SiBum
For: lovelysilver19
I'm sorry it's so bad, unpa. DDD:



Siwon and Kibum were close friends.

Of course, they couldn't be more, because Siwon had HanKyung, and Kibum had Heechul. Both parties were very happy with each other, as happy as they could get anyways.

Siwon didn't know why he felt hurt everytime Kibum asked him for help with Heechul.

Maybe it was because he felt he could do better, and be a better boyfriend than Heechul.

He loved his hyung, but sometimes, he wasn't a good boyfriend.

Siwon knew Kibum didn't cry, especially around others. It took a lot to make the younger boy cry, because even winning an award [their first award no less.] couldn't make the wall named Kibum cry.

The "horse" like man was biting his lip, waiting for Kibum to come out so they could go shopping for a present for Heechul.

Siwon felt his heart beating hard in his chest as he thought about what to do.

He could go with his friend, and feign happiness, or not go, and deal with a sulking Kibum.

Siwon rubbed his temples, when he heard someone enter the room. He looked up and saw Kibum, all ready to go, HanKyung behind him with a weird look on his face.

"Hey," Siwon stepped forward, passing Kibum to kiss his Chinese boyfriend on the forehead, "I'll be back soon."

"Take your time~" He spoke in accented korean, with a bright smile.

Siwon and Kibum left, not realizing HanKyung and Heechul were left alone.


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"Heechul likes silver."

So do I. Siwon glanced at Kibum as they looked around a cheap jewelry store. You would think being a member of Super Junior would pay well (and it did! For about 8 people. But there was 13, so money was a little tight.)

Both boys were dressed in disguises, so no fangirls would know it was really them. Siwon sighed, looking around for anything that Heechul would like. (Something was wrong with him, beacuse Siwon kept picking out things Heechul would hate.)

"He's picky." Kibum sighed, looking at all the necklaces and rings, and everything else the store had to offer. Then he found something perfect. It was a small, silver ring, hung on a silver chained necklace. He was going to get it engraved, but he didn't have enough money on him, so he just bought the necklace. He thanked the owner with a small bow and left, the black leather box in his pocket.

"Do you think Heechul will like it?"

Heechul. Heechul. Heechul. Siwon tried to stay as gentlemanly as he could.

"Of course, if it comes from you."

"He's not really like that.. he's more like.. 'You got me this? It's stupid, take it back.' Sometimes, it kinda hurts." Kibum chuckled to himself, as Siwon lips formed into a slight frown. Siwon would accept anything from Kibum, because it was the thought tha-

What was he thinking?! Kibum was a friend and he was in love with HanKyung.

Wasn't he?

As they entered the SuJu apartment, the air was silent.

"Hannie? Heechul?" Kibum looked in the kitchen, and Siwon walked towards the bathroom. What he heard made him pause. Nobody was in the bathroom, but someone was definitely in the bedroom. And Siwon was guessing it wasn't Shindong.

He heard breathy whispers and his heart sped up, as he put his hand on the bedroom door. Did he want to go in? Did he really want to get his heart broken, because he knew he wasn't going to like what was inside.

Kibum appeared beind Siwon, before he grabbed Siwon's hand turning the handle. The door swung open and the two guys inside paused. Kibum felt his heart sink, and Siwon held himself back from attacking.

Inside the room, a glistening Hankyung and Heechul stared back at them, both flushed red from their "activities". Heechul pulled out of Hankyung, trying to grab a blanket to cover himself up. Hankyung turned away from Kibum and Siwon, as Heechul fiercely shut the door on both shocked boys' faces.

Kibum and Siwon looked at each other, trying to hold back any tears that pooled in their eyes. They walked silently has they heard people in the bedroom scrambling and throwing stuff over.

Both heartbroken boys walked outside the apartment slowly, before taking a seat on the ground outside. They didn't speak, but Kibum did drop Heechul's ring on the ground, watching the silver bounce up and down on the floor.

Kibum looked at Siwon before he got enough courage to speak.

"So um.. are you.."

Siwon nodded and sighed softly, scratching his head.

"We've got each other."

Why wasn't Siwon as sad as he should be? He licked his lips, looking at Kibum with something in his eyes. He leaned forward and captured Kibum's lips with his, the younger boy's eyes open in surprise. Siwon pulled back to look at Kibum.

"It's.. it's.. too early."

Siwon nodded quickly, as Kibum leaned his head on Siwon's shoulder.

"I'll be here, if you ever need me. I was and will always be. I promise."

Siwon whispered the boy, and Kibum nodded.

He knew Siwon would keep that promise.

When the front door opened, Hankyung and Heechul now dressed, Kibum knew he would make Siwon keep that promise.